Where am I? Oh, it’s Wed…

• water
• 1 small glass grapefruit juice
• 1 small serving scrambled eggs w/ smoked gouda, green onions, fresh basil
• 1 small slice sourdough toast
• 20 min high intensity bike ride followed by 5 min stretching
• more water

the rest of the day…eh…bike ride on a hungry stomach because all i had for lunch was my snack of Luna bar and lowfat yogurt, snacked on ginger-carrot-apple juice and hummus/tapenade/pita just before dinnertime then attempted to make a tasty veggie curry and failed miserably.  i mean, it’s made, but it’s not very tasty.  too watery.  had a piece of bread, a white nectarine, some grapefruit juice…feeling crappy going to bed.

Tearing up Tuesday

• 1 medium glass blackberry juice
• water
• 1 daily multi-vitamin
• 1 large serving whole grain cheerios w/ 1% milk
• 20 min moderate-high intensity bike-ride (attacking the hills, cruising the flats)
• water
• 1 medium salad - romaine lettuce, tomato, cucumber, carrot, red onion, scoop of tuna salad, 1 hard-boiled egg, light dressing
• 1 wimpy kind of stale pita that came w/ the salad
• 2 servings Mango Odwalla smoothie
• more water
• 20 min moderate-high intensity bike-ride
• water
• 2 very small bites beef jerky
• 1 large serving home-made mac & cheese w/ broccoli rabe, caramelized onions, cherry tomatoes, fresh thyme
• 1 guinness
• 1 glass blackberry juice
• 1 serving milk chocolate

Monday, meh

• 1 cup coffee, black
• 20 min moderate intensity walk
• 1 fruit & yogurt parfait (pre-made - 320 calories, 20% daily carb??)
• 1 Luna bar, 180 calories, 10% daily carb
• 1 medium serving rice and lentil pilaf (leftovers)
• water
• 30 min brisk intensity walk

~ tour and orientation at the city health center - they have my favorite rowing machine, a huge lap pool, lots of classes and cheap rates - I need to do a little personal accounting and aim to try at least one class by the end of the week, and to set a routine that starts next week ~

• 1 small glass 1% milk
• 1 medium serving sauteed green beans (w/ garlic and lemon), 1 ear of fresh corn on the cob, 3 baked chicken wings
• 1 small glass blackberry juice
• water
• 1 medium-large handful fresh berries (rasberries, blackberries, golden rasberries)

Sunday recap

• 1 veggie omlette w/ side of fresh fruit, & small serving cottage cheese
• 1 english muffin w/ butter
• 1 cup coffee, black
• 1 large all-fruit peach smoothie
• some slurpee at a movie (sugar i didn’t need!  thirst i had to quench…)
• 1 large serving brown rice pasta w/ sauteed veg - broccoli rabe, carrot, garlic, basil, oregano, tomato, salt & pepper, squeeze of lemon
• 1 glass red wine
• 1 uber-rich fancy chocolate truffle
• 1 small handful candy that B. brought home to torture me with (more sugar!  ack!)
• water

phew! friday!

• 1 glass apple juice
• 1 serving steel cut oatmeal w/ berries, sliced almonds, brown sugar & a splash of vanilla
• water
• 20 min moderate-high intensity bike ride
• more water
• 1 serving lamb kabob, w/ basmati rice, tabouli, 1 pita and hummus
• 1 small pot turkish coffee
• water
• 20 min moderate intensity bike ride
• 1 serving edemame
  
• sushi - 2 pieces each salmon, yellowtail, tuna, bbq eel, 4 pieces california roll, 2 pieces spider roll
• sake - probably more than i should have
• 1 small serving cheesecake
• water
• 1 small serving cheesecake

i think it’s thursday…

• 1 whole wheat mini-bagel, somewhat stale but toasted anyway with a small smear of butter
• 2 eggs, sunnyside up
• 1 small glass V8 fruit jiuce
• water
• 20 min easy-to-moderate bike ride
• more water
• lowfat fig-cereal bar (from TJ’s)
• 1 medium double-shot mocha
• 1 banana
• 1 medium serving leftover rice and lentil pilaf
• water
• two slices super-veggie pizza (no fresh stuff in the house, raiding the reserves in the freezer)
• 1 small serving (a full serving is 3 cups!!) kettle-corn from farmer’s market
• 2 glasses white wine
• 1 small glass apple juice
• two small squares dark chocolate

wondering if this will really work, wed.

• 1 small serving eggs scrambled w/ ground turkey & smoked gouda + fresh garlic chives and thyme
• a couple sips apple juice
• 1 small cup coffee, black
• 1 veggie sando - two slices marble-rye, mustard, mayo, tomato, cucumber, carrot, red onion, lettuce, 1 slice swiss cheese
• 2 servings Odwalla Blackberry smoothie - 1 bottle contains two servings, totaling 300 calories
• brisk 15 min owww-my calves are burning-walk
• 1 medium serving lentils & rice pilaf, w/ toasted flax seeds, raisins, spinach, garlic, seasoned w/ garam masala, salt & pepper
• 1 small glass red wine
• 4 marshmellows, because my sweet-tooth struck and ice cream would have been an even worse choice
• 1 small serving wheat thins
• water

Ugh

Let’s face it - I’m terrible at this.

Being on the road, away from home, sick, everything these past few months that could possibly interrupt any sense of wellness routine, has effectively turned into setback after setback and now I feel fat and discouraged.  Mostly fat.

Looking at my calender now, I am home and working for the next few months, and I see that I have an opportunity I’d better not waste.

I have formulated a plan.

Step 1: Join gym, establish routine - in this case, I will be going to the affordable, clean, and pleasant community health center w/ pool, various classes, and the usual assortment of equipment.  I will choose two days a week to attend the facility in the morning or evening, and my first workout challenge will be the rowing machine, to build cardio stamina and work on upper and lower body strength.  This begins next week, and will be logged on this blog.

Step 2: Restart, for the umpteenth time, food-blogging.  I know that I am eating a higher-fat diet than I should.  I know that my ratios of grains to fresh produce to proteins are all out of whack.  Not being in my own kitchen for a while has made me very aware of what my body is craving and that cooking my own meals is the only way to get this under control.  I know I should suck it up and start counting calories and other nutritional elements in more detail.  This begins today, and if you are taking the time to read any of it, please let me know - witnesses increase my sense of accountability and I promise not to cheat!!

Step 3: Lighten up on myself.  Think thin.  Think beautiful.  Think anything other than the dark, critical, self-loathing thoughts I tend to slip towards at times like these.  I have had a run of one sickness after another this year, and am daily battling chronic aches and pains - I know that the sooner I begin to treat myself better, the more likely I am to see a turnaround in my overall health.

• 1 medium serving scrambled eggs w/ green onion and lots of cherry tomatoes
• 1 slice sourdough toast w/ butter
• water
• 20 min moderate intensity bike ride
• water
• 1 turkey/swiss/avocado sando on a french roll
• 1 B-Monster Odwalla
• water
• craving something sweet and cold…damnit…

sick-no-more

Test results today: white-blood-cell count back to normal, previous signs of infection gone. Back to the business of living!

• 1 fried egg
• 1 slice sourdough toast w/ butter
• brisk 20 min walk
• 1 cup coffee, black
• 1/2 tuna-croissant sando w/ lettuce, tomato, olives, cucumber
• 1/2 crystal geyser blackberry soda thing
• 1 odwalla granola bar
• brisk 20 min walk
• water
• 2 buffalo chicken wings
• 2 pints lager
• 1 large serving homemade thai fried rice, (brown basmati) with broccoli rabe, fresh basil & cilantro, red & green onion, garlic, (+ 2 tbls peanut oil & 1 egg)
• 1 large grapefruit
• 2 small chunks dark chocolate